ORKUT

Like so many of my peers I have also been (lets say was) addicted to orkut. An online community helping me be in touch with my friends from my former schools, people I met at summer camps, competitions and college batchmates. Even cousins. All together in one list. Its like my own network.

Since, I logged in with orkut, I was hyper-excited about finding everyone. The scrap books were filled with how are you? where are you? cho chweet , you are my fan! etc. There were all familiar faces and all the same people I felt genuine warmth towards. Yet, from start I felt t being impersonal. Its been like almost an year on orkut and my friends are still the same. I hang out with the same people. My acquaintances remain the same. The people I do not wish to talk are still intact. I have not really gained a jigri yaar. I might know where they are studying and even wish them on their birthdays which I might not have remembered. Orkut Birthday reminders helps me to do so.

I am sure there are people in our lives when we meet, exchange formalities and have the small talk which we are required to have. Its exactly like that with orkut. I scrap till some time until I do not knwo what more to talk. Actually, I did gain one thing. Sholud not really be boasting about it though and it is the fear of the question, WASSUP?
I hate it now. I am even out of ideas to answer back to this question in the funniest possible. Ceiling, sky, neighbours, roof.............etc are all done!

The point of this article is why am I still on orkut? Am I gaining any of those friends in need are friends indeed types? Maybe, the fans list are indicators of those! Do two people who genuinely hold respect for each other and share a rapport need orkut? Right now, I am holding off those ideas to delete my account but who knows what the future holds!

H-O-P-E

Odd things happen at odd hours. Well, talking to a friend at an extremely odd hour of the day, the friend asked, " Aksha, is hope good or bad?" I replied fast, "Duh! Its a good thing."

Friend: "You aint thinking. "

Sure, I was not thinking and since that night, I have been pondering on this question and have not stopped yet. 'Hope' I get the answer by blogging. :)

Hope. This word has been used by human race extensively. Our mythological texts and so many of their events have the elemant of hope involoved. My bollywood has used the word hope and made the audience cry with the mother that hopes her son will get well soon, the heroine hopes her love come back to her and blah blah blah.

Since, the conversation, I have been thinking. This hope that we rely on so much is it crippling us? Is it making us impractical? Is the relief that it provides transient? Is it giving us false expectations? I have been thinking about all this and think that hope is actually not that good as i thought it was. For so many, hope is the thread to live on but hope is this evil force that keeps us in dark. It actually helps us to escape from the bitter truth. Its like Astrology. All sugar coated lies.